You should make it your goal to become comfortable with being uncomfortable. It is then, that the biggest growth happens. XO!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN! Long time no see? Am I right? Well
October, LITober is always a crazy, fast-paced, and a hectic month for me. I have a million friends celebrating birthdays, some of the best college parties happen, my birthday is in October (I turned 21 the 17th, woohooo!), mid-terms show up during this time, annnnnnd I was preparing for a pageant. Yes…a pageant. While going through a roller coaster of emotions, I just KNEW that this was going to be a post that needed to be written.
So about this pageant thing, it was called Miss Black and Gold which is a pageant hosted by the Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity Inc. that consist of interviews, introductions, swim, talents, formal, and more. When I tell you this was so far out of my comfort zone that I could vomit…I am not exaggerating. People just assume because I’m cute, outgoing, and have confidence that I am automatically pageant ready. LOL HAHAHA, YOU THOUGHT.
It’s way more than that, see let me list the amount of times I’ve been on a real life stage in front of hundreds of people : 1) graduation, 2) one single dance performance, 3) no other time. With that being said, the very little times I’ve hit the stage I was with people – I was never just depending on myself. 2 weeks prior to the day of I began to experience anxiety (like wtf) I was so curious as to why this one event was causing me to freak so much. Normally I will have this feeling the day of and right before but it came so early. I was terrified. I was being critiqued on my looks, outfits, walk, my brief introduction on who I was, the answer to extremely hard questions (on the freaking spot, lordtttt) and it was the loneliest and most empowered I felt in my life.
I literally wanted to quit everyday because I was terrified BUT I didn’t and I completed and overcame my goal of doing something way out of my comfort zone and I strongly encourage you all to do the same. I strengthened my public speaking (largest audience I’ve spoke in front of), my heel walking game is FOREVER strong, people were able to see another side/get a better understanding of who I am andddddd I finally got to perform spoken word (an original) which was something I was wanted to do but was always to afraid of.
I think my biggest memory and most beloved moment was being able to do my spoken word because it was a side of me no one really knew about, the reaction from the crowd while I was performing was amazing. When I left the stage to get prepped for formal (according to my friends/family) the audience was screaming, standing up, and quoting parts of my piece which was so cool. I also loved bonding with such fun and amazing girls! So I challenge anyone who is reading this post to STEP OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE at least one time before 2016 is over.
Here’s a clip of my spoken word, it was recorded on an iPhone so please excuse the quality:
I hope you enjoyed watching this as much I did writing and performing it, this is a moment and feeling I will never forget. Now my TEDtalk is next – after doing this public speaking isn’t even scary anymore 🙂
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